S.H.M.I.L.Y.

Facade

mandylogy@hotmail.com (- Mandy -) — Fri, 16 Apr 2010 11:47:00 +0000

After being alone for so many years, solitude has become a part of me. As much as I would love to have a group of friends to hang out with, I constantly find myself having difficulty to invite them to my world. Perhaps, we're too different? or may be, my version of friend is someone who knows you entirely without having to change their self to shape you and BEST FRIEND DON'T JUDGE.

People who barely knows me often think that I'm unfriendly, I doubt that. Probably, the first impression didn't go well. How ironic, what am I suppose to do? Tell them straight at their face "I'm a reserved person, thereby a little space will be much appreciated."? or "Can you stop being so childish? It annoys the shit out of me?"

Anyways, the thought of "one true friend will beat a dozen friends" still hold true in my dictionary.

PS:I hate fakers as much as I hate to fake my feelings with other.

iTalkwhoa!

mandylogy@hotmail.com (- Mandy -) — Tue, 06 Apr 2010 16:53:00 +0000

I bet most of you have heard of skype. But what about, iTalkwhoa?

For the past few weeks, I have heard so much about the iTalkwhoa from my friends and some radio ads.But I was not aware about it, until few minutes ago.

Ok, story time!

So, I was on an oversea call with Derek, doing some last minute confirmation on my UK trip, and when I about to ask him what time is he gonna pick me up, my phone credit just pfft! gone without warning. Freaking rm10 for a 10 minutes talk! Mad max

Yea, and I was complaining with my girlfriend and ask if she could send me some credit so I won't get kidnapped when I arrived in London airport.

Me: Pls la~ send me rm3...

Momo: Go use skype la...

Me: He's not online la.. some more if I register a new account, the test call only 30 to 60 sec. How to talk like that?!

Momo: http://www.italkwhoa.com/

And, I went to the site, registered and this(shown below) appeared in my sight, and believe it or not, I was literally laughing "wahahahaha... gosh! rm5!!!! kakaka" like one of those witches in the Disney cartoon. XD

So I called Derek, talked without stopping, was afraid of the credit running out again.And thank god, I could finish my conversation this time. Went to check how much credit I left.. and it appeared (shown below)... yea and again, I went "O god o god o god!"
At first, i thought my comp is lagging, went to check out the price IDD call to UK fixed line is rm 0.05.... 5 sen! 5 sen! 5 sen! LIMA SEN! Happy like dunno what!

I'm not being bias, but I'm so in love with iTalkwhoa now. So as a token of gratitude, I shall help TMnet to do some publicity =p

Besides calling, in iTalkwhoa we can also chat in IM, share files, voice calls, tweet tweet and also SMS-ing! Plus, you can also send e-mails and check your friend’s updates on Facebook or twitter, it's so convenient that we can do all at one time without logging in and opening so much window! Furthermore, no lagging! none at all! whoa whoa~ yay yayy~

In addition, we can make as much free internet calls as we want.. but do consider the IDD call too.. super cheap! two thumbs up! For the call rates it's the same with the TM iTalk, click HERE to see the chart. And if you would love to top up, all you need to do is buy the iTalk card, it's available in 7-11.

Heh! Do not hesitate for the RM5, Grab it HERE

PS: Rm5! rm5! rm5... mwahahahaha 5 sen! 5 sen! 5 sen!

Lucas says

mandylogy@hotmail.com (- Mandy -) — Sat, 03 Apr 2010 14:46:00 +0000

Hi everyone! I'm Lucas,was born on 18 august,2008, currently 1.5 year old!

I'm a miniature Maltese, barely 2 kg, I do not know about my height, Mandy never measure for me =(

I'm a guy, but people always misinterpret me a girl, probably is the ribbon's fault, the one Mandy use to tie on my hair every time we go out.

My favorite snack is milk biscuit, but I don't always get it unless I give out my paw when Mandy says "hand!"

I'm single and available, for girls who wish to know me, you may add me in my dogbook, click HERE

If you think I'm cute and wish to see more appearance of me in this blog, please drop a comment in the box =)

PS: No worries.. I don't bite =D

Lonely process

mandylogy@hotmail.com (- Mandy -) — Thu, 25 Mar 2010 08:15:00 +0000

Grief is a lonely process. Your days and nights are filled with memories. Sometimes guilt gets in the way. Sometimes you feel like “What’s the point?” You don’t like being alone and you don’t want to think about getting involved with anyone else either.

I kept dreaming about him.. three days in a role.. no kidding.. Why am I so fucked up?

He's still alive on this planet, but i do not know why must he pretend like he never existed? Like he is gone far far away, to the outer space, where nobody can reach him and all i can do is to grieve for him. Writing him numerous letter that all ended up in my drafts, still sending him regards even if I know I will never get a reply, dialing the number which no longer in service, looking at his pictures and smile like an idiot. Tell me about it, what kind of a life I'm living.

And here I am now, like a widow. Mourning and longing for the faded love.

If I have a chance to start all over again, no matter how much I love him, I will choose not to have met him in my life, because you have no idea, what kind of aftermath I'm dealing with. Trying to forget, but can't. Trying to die, but don't. Seeking for the missing self, but no end is near. Nothing more to say, but go on.

PS: I'm fine, it's just tears.. no big deal really, it's not the first time.. I will be alright, it just the matter of time.

Faded friendship

mandylogy@hotmail.com (- Mandy -) — Mon, 22 Mar 2010 16:54:00 +0000

Friends are like roses they are beautiful and gentle, but will cause pain in the process of defending themselves

I once have this close friend, let's call her Chanel. I met her in a party,she's this charming and bright lady, outgoing and friendly. At least that's how she portrayed herself way back.We did not contact each other right after the party, not until we met up again by chance on the second time and found out that she is living near my area and we often met up for lunch or movie since I can drive her.

It started out pretty well, at one point we were very close, because one of mr17's friend had a crush on her.. and eventually mr,17, his friend, chanel and me turned out to be the closest friend. We always went on a double date and hung out really late, and at the end of the day I would have her stay over my place, because we had so much to talk about. From breakups to new romance, from love to blog, from food to fashion. And I thought, "I'm so glad that I finally found someone who shares the same interest as i do. Another sister!"

Long enough after me and her got together, I found out that I've been used. I've been a fool in front of her marvelous acting skills. Or may be she wasn't even acting.. she changed, perhaps? She loves attentions, she started to indulge herself in the lime light, losing herself over fame. She is different, not genuine anymore. No longer the girl I know.

From "staying over my house for pillow talk" to "staying over my house because of her curfews", from "You'll definitely be my made in honor" to "I don't think bff ever exist", from "Hey, let's dolled up and attend together" to "I'm sorry, I can't bring you along."Things changed, I tried to mend it.. but what I got at the end of the day is "O.. I thought you dialed wrong number"

I had a great dilemma before removing her from my friend list, before letting this new found sisterhood fades. I put in too much, and damn it for my stupidity in being so thrilled and believe what we had was genuine. Damn it! I thought what she need is someone who will remind her of what mistakes she made, someone who will be there for her when she's down. But end up, all she need is events, fame, and she enjoys better with a male companion. That's how things changed.

Anyway, it has been quiet awhile since I heard from her. It was her birthday few days ago.. and I was just thinking what we promised earlier on going to a trip together on our birthday month.

As fast as we became friends we come to notice how much faster we can lose each other...how much more friends you become friends with...even the ones you never think you will...Remember the good times we all have together because time and reality is moving fast and the reality is some of us will never see each other again and some will...but even though we'll all change we'll all remember the times we had together and all the times we said best friend still the end.

PS: Happy belated birthday..

What if

mandylogy@hotmail.com (- Mandy -) — Sun, 21 Mar 2010 19:41:00 +0000

"You get ideas from daydreaming. You get ideas from being bored. You get ideas all the time. The only difference between writers and other people is we notice when we're doing it." ~Neil Gaiman~

One thing about myself is I love to imagine things, I love the damn sentence "what if..?"

Most of my friends who know me well,will always tend to ask me "why do you have so much what if?"

Seriously, I have no idea, probably because many incidents happened on me when i was younger, hence it gives me an idea of things can change over a night, and to not failed myself is to have a plan B or even C always.

Many of you might say that I'm a person who worried too much and missed out so much fun because of having to be so careful and serious all the time. But I just can't help it, it's me.

I love inner reflections, I really do.. as much as questioning myself with the impossibles and possibles.

Day dreaming, and drowning myself in my own imagination. I wonder is that a Pisces thing, or it's just me?

Like before I sleep every night,for most of the nights i would say, I will have funny thoughts running in my head. For instance like,"What if I found Lucas lay dead beside me next morning?","What if I woke up one day and find a stranger beside me?", "What if I'm able to stop time?" more and more "what if.."

Sometimes it can go worst, day dreaming in class is a small thing, what I'm talking about here is something more serious like I can drive myself away when I'm reading a novel, yes! like when I'm reading a text, hmm.. probably something like this "Everything about me invites you in - my voice, my face, even my smell. As if I need only of that". Short text like this is enough to keep me wonder in my own thoughts for a good 5 minutes or perhaps more.

You know, day dreaming and imaginations are what keep me from falling today, because I like to place myself in different situation and be prepared for the worst.

I will not say it's a bad thing for thinking too much.. not a good thing either. I would say it's neutral, and it depends on how people judge it. Like the "..everything has both sides, the good and bad, it just depends on how you make use of it.." theory. As for myself, I glad to be who I am, and how I see things today.

Lastly and one word to describe myself in this aspect, I love organizing things, and there is no "last minute" in my dictionary.

So, what's wrong with asking WHAT IF?

PS: Different people have different point of view, and no doubt there's many types of people on this planet. I did not understand that before.. Not until recently, the statement proven to be quite true.

Bunny and friends

mandylogy@hotmail.com (- Mandy -) — Sun, 14 Mar 2010 16:18:00 +0000

My 19th Birthday

Date: 9th of March,2010
Time: From 8.00 pm
Venue: Hard Rock, Kuala Lumpur
Theme: Night with the wild animals

1# The bunny set I bought from Japan, first time wearing it in public.. after so long..

2# It was a very last minute thing to celebrate in hard rock.

3# But I still enjoyed and had so much fun seeing my friends with animal headset.

4# Thought of wearing my kitty ears, but still decided to be a bunny.. sexy is my thing=p

5# First time feeling like I'm not in Malaysia when I'm in Malaysia, full of foreigners

6# What is more tempting than cheese?

7# I think our table is the center of attraction of that night, agree?

8# I wanna stay 18 forever, like forever!!

9# Introducing the cute leading bunny of the night.

10# Bok the Christmas reindeer

11# Dwayne the devil (hey! what kind of a animal is that!?)

12# Kyean the stripes rabbit!

13# Junn the ice cream bunny

14# Phoebe the devil's queen!

15# Someone thought we're japanese.. is tht a good thing?

16# annoyed tofu with phoebe and her new found toy

17# My lovely brother with his furry bow tie

18# So cute right?.. cute right? WTF..

19# Cute hor? HOR?!

20# Surprisingly, they are not fighting that night

21# Junn said she heard a girl BOO us, for what?.. being too cute I guess?

22# This is Mr. 21-years-old-California-army-guy who came to our table to request to take a pic with us.

23# and he bought us beer, how nice? But I have no idea what his name o.O

24# If I could turn time, I will go back and push KYEAN to one side and sit in the middle HMP!

25# We're just taking pictures like nobody business, so don't mind the long pictures post.

26# Flying kisses~

27# Kyean the first one who gone when we're on the bed. =p

28# Whether you like it or not, i think i'm so cute that night.. XD

29# You owe me pressie, mandylogy in the wonderland! I will bring feizai along =D

30# I promised to get him a t-back.. so till then stay tuned

31# Very sweet of you, though the vinegar is sour..

32# Late comers! hmp.. anyway i still love the meiji snacks.. it's Leo on the most right.

33# At first I was worry they don't click well..

34# My kindori partner in crime.

35# I know I still owe you a ps3 and don't forgets my ray ban.

36# Eh Kyean, what you feed dwayne that night?

37# It's very nice to gather a my friends from different circles and form a bigger circle.

38# I know I'm cute. Thank you

39# He has no idea bout the movie the devil wears prada.. someone please tell him.

40# Priceless expression.

41# Fixing my crooked ears

42# scary rabbit and horror monkey

43# Junn, what were you trying to do?

44# I seriously have no idea what was i thinking that time

45# xoxo, anyone?

46# and the infamous bunnies of the night

47# Ma-girls!

48# Ma-boys!

49# Need not to say, my girls are all stunning...

50# Noted: Mandy's properties!

51# The March babes! AKA pisces/romantis/princess/dreamer/artist/...etc =p

52# Always makes my day by standing beside me.. call me petite! =p

53# June ah.. i will share half of my bro with you, k?
54# Bok, make her a food blogger too~

55# Wagging tails

56# The cacat rabbit and monkey XD

Phew~ Finally! longest picture post ever.. there is part 2 >.<

And here comes the last teen in my life, I have no idea how am I feeling inside..and er not long ago I finished the twilight series for the second time, Bella is so lucky, 18 forever, how I wish.. get me a Cullen, please!

My birthday for this year is different, no more wei zhen after three years straight having him with me on my Birthday. It's not as terrible as i thought though, I had a blast, enjoyed myself, and it's all brand new to me.

Actually, I didn't have any plans, but well.. it just happened, simple and fun.. Just like what i wanted initially.

It was a long day for me, rush, rush and rush. I suppose I'm too excited on the day before, I couldn't sleep much, woke up without needing my alarm. Rare, especially during hoildays.And thank god my voice weren't too sexy after the karaoke session.

It's the first time, having three celebrations in a day, it was mini but it's the thought that counts =D.. I had three cakes, so I needed to wish for three times, but for that three times, my mind is totally blank, not knowing what to wish for, or may be if I did, it will be a wish that requires miracle to bring alive. And may be because of that I have no desires of making any wishes. However, I won't say It's a bad thing, having no wishes.. looking at the bright side, may be I already owe everything i wanted? Ok, no more emo and funny thoughts..

PS: So sad.. hard rock did not offer complimentary brownie for the birthday bunny!

Venus

mandylogy@hotmail.com (- Mandy -) — Sat, 06 Mar 2010 03:12:00 +0000

"A dream is a wish your heart makes, when you fast asleep"

Certainly, I'm so happy to cuddle in his arms again, warm as always.
But it got heaty after awhile, and with my playfulness, I told him "How I wish you're a Cullen now". He giggled.
Anis's expression was puzzled when she saw the both of us. I was waiting for his reply anxiously.
And he went,"Yea, we're back together" Then again, we embraced ourselves in each other arms.
I remember calling him. I was very careful this time, unlike the past I will keep up until I get a respond from him. However,when I ready to stop, there he goes answering my call,"Yes, babe? I was..."

For the love of Venus, cupid must be kidding with me. Each time when I ready to give up, he gives me hope; Every time when I decided to let go, he gives me reasons to stay. How ironic?

PS:梦里不断放映着我记忆中的他.. Memories, that's the only thing he left for me..

Faux lashes:101

mandylogy@hotmail.com (- Mandy -) — Mon, 22 Feb 2010 23:57:00 +0000

Just because you weren't born with long paint-brushes for lashes, doesn't mean you can't fake 'em with some falsies. Faux eyelashes may seem a little intimidating to put on at first, but they're actually quite easy.

1.Make sure your eyes are free from makeup. (make up base and eye base are fine)

2. Apply a thin line of black or brown eyeliner atop your lash line. This gives you a target for applying your lashes. (preferberly a pen eyeliner, because liquid eyeliner might stuck on your real lashes and later on u will have difficulty in unclotting them.)

3.Take your eyelash curler and curl your lashes. (Do not apply mascarra first, or it will turn out like the last picture below labelled with "B".. two layered )

4.Apply a thin line of adhesive along the lash band, and wait a few seconds (blow it, fan it.. etc) for the glue to become tacky. Then, press the lashes on right above your natural lash line, starting from the inner corner of your eye and working outwards. Keep your fingers holding them in place until they set. (If the glue seeps out a bit, it's okay because it will dry clear.)

5.Take your eyelash curler and curl your lashes and false lashes together so that they join together.

6.apply a coat of mascarra.

7. apply another layer of eyeliner to cover the lash band.

8. Not forgetting you lower eyeliner and lashes and you're ready to go!

Tip i:To avoid the mascarra leave u a mess around ur eyes, you can use any brush, place it behind ur lashes as shown above and apply the mascarra.

Tip ii:Make sure they fit. Press the fake eyelashes to your eyelid, along your natural lash line. Do the fake eyelashes extend beyond the natural line? If so, cut off as much as needed from the outside edge with cuticle scissors.

Pictures shown on the right side is the correct way of wearing a faux lashes, as on the left side, u can actually spot two layered of lashes (real and fake one).. so that's how it is, everytime when i see girls having this "two layered lashes", my fingers feel so itchy and just want to pull them out of the eyes =p CLICK FOR A LARGER VIEW

Ok.. it's odd, because it has been a long time since i update a makeup tutorial post.. well.. although i'm not a professional groomer, but I do pretty convinced that I'm good at doll-ing up meself, atleast =p ? heh.. don't get irritated, i started out young.. hmm.. probably around 12 or younger.. remember that i had my mum caught me messing my face up with her makeup.. haha.. that was one of the classic tales in my childhood...

Anyways, i hope this tutorial is helpful.. and if you wish to read more tutorial like this in the near future.. kindly show me some encouragement XD
Comments are all welcome, for negative feedbacks wise.. just don't let me found out who you are.. *cough*

PS: I'm so sad.. because few more chapters and it is going to end soon.. i've been slowing down the reading process though.. yet.. =(

00:36 a.m.

mandylogy@hotmail.com (- Mandy -) — Sun, 21 Feb 2010 16:06:00 +0000

Poor lucy and lucas.. I swear I heard lucas whining just now..

After numerous attempts of me trying to concertrate in edward and bella's wedding.. i surrender..

With all the bangs, whizzes and cracks.. urgh.. and worst still with the chinese firecrackers.. in every 15 minutes interval or less.. really, it's driving me crazy here..

Before my mum went out to work, i heard she nagged my brother to sleep early and be prepared for school tomorrow.. and now.. i really wonder, with all those bangs, whizzes and cracks.. how is he going to make it to sleep.

PS: This will be my second time reading breaking dawn after 1.5 years.. afterall, i think Jacob deserves my empathy.

深思

mandylogy@hotmail.com (- Mandy -) — Mon, 15 Feb 2010 19:10:00 +0000

其实，说不想你是假的。我厌倦自己总是口是心非，说放下，但拳头始终紧握着。
快一年了，可是我还是对你依依不舍。
我惭愧。我自责。我内疚。
你离开以后，我一直都不好过，不是因为孤独，更不是因为不服气。
那是因为，我为自己做过的事感到羞耻；我为我自己的行为感到恶心。
刚开始，也不明白为什么要如此折磨自己，到后来才发现我在惩罚自己。
对外人而言，那也许很愚蠢。可是，谁知道，我的痛楚？谁会谅解？
我无法原谅自己的过去，尤其是自己的行为。
冷静了以后，才发觉当初的自己是那么的可怕。多么的陌生。
国小时，常在课本里读到“自错能改”，可是且忽略了“为时已晚”。
我努力的为自己辩解，撒手段，是因为太爱他，不想失去他。爱情本来不就是自私的吗？可是，我觉得这样的想法很恐怖。…就这样，我的心陷在那无止境的拔河中。　
我很渴望得到解脱…

PS: 我自责，是因为我重蹈覆辙；我内疚，是因为我还在乎你；我惭愧，是因为我不懂珍惜。

CNY & V'day

mandylogy@hotmail.com (- Mandy -) — Sun, 14 Feb 2010 03:58:00 +0000

I was keep saying that god is so kind to me this year, because he knows that I'm single for this valentines, that's why he makes today the first day of chinese new year! ah-ha..

Also, thanks for sending me those new year messages, for those i forgot to reply, i'm sorry about it..

Gtg, and HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR TO ALL OF YOU OUT THERE, AND NOT TO FORGET HAPPY VALENTINES!

PS: Gong Xi Fa Cai!

Magnificent beauty

mandylogy@hotmail.com (- Mandy -) — Tue, 09 Feb 2010 13:33:00 +0000

Unfurl your cloak of silken white
Reveal your secret wand upraised at length
And not unlike a star you shine serene
To exalt the autumn-tide with silver cups.
Shall we drink sweet nectar as we praise
The simple beauty revealed now in truth?
Or shall we simply sit and idly gaze
Into the eyes of love I have for you?
Calla lily soft and silken white
With open heart I pledge my love this night.

Calla Lily

mandylogy@hotmail.com (- Mandy -) — Mon, 08 Feb 2010 21:05:00 +0000

The flower symbolism associated with the calla lily is magnificent beauty.

Calla lily is symbolic of marriage and purity because of its white color and its trumpet-like shape, similar to a woman's shape. It is also the symbol of rebirth and resurrection; therefore, it is widely used in funeral arrangements and planted in cemeteries.

Just feel like painting out of the blue.. hmm.. inspiration always come in a time that you will never expect.. you know? (Hahaha.. trying to act like an artist here) Anyway, I'm not done yet, above is a draft of the calla lily( I'm using soft pastel! =D).. and tick-tock it's already 5 in the morning, and i think i better hit the sack!

PS: Georgia O'Keeffe's painting "Calla Lilies with Red Anemone" (1928) recently was sold for $6.2 million at a Christie's auction in New York, and I wonder if art have a price, how much does my painting worth =p

Fame

mandylogy@hotmail.com (- Mandy -) — Sat, 06 Feb 2010 14:17:00 +0000

Fame is the thirst of youth
~Lord Byron~

Very true indeed.
I thought I never like fame, but recently.. I starting to doubt myself..
However, don't judge me, because you're no one to me; don't point your finger at me or talk behind my back as if you know me very well, because i know you don't. Like it or not, just shut and see how truthful I can be to myself, atleast I'm not living in denial and I FEEL GOOD ABOUT HOW I LIVE MY LIFE.

PS: 抱着这样的想法，有错吗？

JAN 18 2010

mandylogy@hotmail.com (- Mandy -) — Mon, 01 Feb 2010 08:34:00 +0000

Date: 18 January,2010
Time: The whole evening
Event: Sensuala calendar girl in making (day 1)

1# First of all, I'm so proud, because i got the exclusive invitation to mess around in his studio XD

2# Between, it is the first day of the sensuala calendar girl photoshoot.. (disappointed because of the model above not wearing lingerie?) LOL..

3# So basically, that's my job in the stidio.. to kacau-kacau around.. and to cheer up the atmosphere =p (told'ya i can't be a quiet and decent "art director" *if u insist*.)

4# So, this is the man behind all the fab girl's pic displayed on the screen in the mist club the other day. Believe me, he is so proud of all the girls.

5# Dwayne and his cute/bubbly/cheerful/artistic/pretty/intelligent assistant =D*big smile*

6# and this is RAJA, THE KING*the king teddy bear*.. another assistant of dwayne.

7# Need not to introduce.. the cute/bubbly/..... *sucker punch*

8# You know he is so cool, he introduced me one of the dress up game online.. yea DRESS UP games.. =D.. *Secretly think that he wants to be a stylist instead of a photographer*

9# Girl on set.. sorry, no close up.. but no worries, they are all HERE *click*

10# and out lunch we go, while the girls are recording their HOW-TO-EAT-SENSUALLY... click HERE to watch *guys will definitely turn on*

11# Dwayne 101 : He can't live without coffee!

12# This is what I do after tired jumping and running around the studio

13# Teddy! and he claimes tht i'm like a children, very hard to please! =D AM I?

14# Kay kay, the makeup artist.. one of my buddy to play with

15# but not when they're working ='(.. btw, it's sylvia behind doing the hair..

16# Last picture of th day, feel so incomplete to end a post without my camwhore pics.. tee-hee

PS: I'm no longer running for modelle beauty50 and special thanks to all my friends out there who voted for me.. thanks for supporting me all the way, =D *bow*

Danang

mandylogy@hotmail.com (- Mandy -) — Sun, 31 Jan 2010 09:47:00 +0000

Meet Danang! =D

D: OMG! so freaking expensive? I'm such a expensive bitch to date
M: NVM, I'm your filthy rich bastard!

Obviously, not funny at all =p! The conversation above means nothing to you, since you have no idea what's going on. Anyways, I didn't ask you to read also!

PS: This post is a result of me stucking at home for god-knows-how-long... nothing more than random-ness.. *sucker punch* OUCH...

Grasshopper

mandylogy@hotmail.com (- Mandy -) — Fri, 29 Jan 2010 09:39:00 +0000

Event: Grasshopper right now in concert
Date: 23rd January,2010
Time: starts at 8.00
Venue: Sunway Lagoon, surf beach
Partners in crime: Junn, Jam and Alvin

1# I was so wrong.. it is not boring at all!

2# Pictures are credit to Alvin.. xoxo

3# Thanks to my bro who got me the vip seats.. thank god! otherwise i won't be going.. remembering the last time I almost faint in neyo's concert.. omg.. nightmare!

3# The opening with their fancy cloths.. It kinda reminds me of the movie "doctor parnassus".. hmm.. u know, the circus thieme?

4# and the dancers remind me of the super mario.. XD

5# I thought it's gonna be boring.. because the band is so not my age.. (FYI Grasshopper are celebrating their 25 years aniversary this year) But i was wrong.. What i like about their concert, one of it is their fashion.. which designed by a hk designer specially for their concert..

6# Their humor, and voice.. gosh i just love the sing a long section!... and the art of stripping.. XD

7# ...Their bodies.. wohoo... i have no idea how old is he, but look at his body... aww.. look exactly like the male barbie doll.. Kent.. so shiny and so define! hahahah

8# Last but not least, their creativity in stage performance.. it's no ordinary dance ok!

9# Two thumbs up! The crowd was shouting for encore.. for two time and for two times they never failed to impress the fans..

10# Introducing you.. Junn and Darryl!

11# Hey.. you better start writing a blog when you're in NYC! =D

12# O.. i forgot to mention that it was raining that night.. haha.. i dunno why.. i just like this picture.. we look rediculous in tht, but cute.. haha

13# This is jam.. and i think he needs a bread.. anyone?

14# This is Alvin! Isn't he as cute as the chipmunks? LOL =P Look! look clearly.. don't u think so???

I glad all of you enjoy the concert =D.. and JUNN, i hope your mother likes what you brought home for her XD

PS: It has been almost two and a half months and I'm still counting on.. God.. I'm bloody rotting here..

Because of you

mandylogy@hotmail.com (- Mandy -) — Tue, 26 Jan 2010 01:29:00 +0000

I wish to have a doraemon, so that i could go back to the past.. and i can slap the old me on the face and say "wake up, you despo!"

It was the biggest mistake I made in my life, being with him is so wrong.. I gave up my reputation, all the cold stares and rumors behind my back are just not worth it! OMG! Only if I could go back again..

It's of course a good thing that I'm no longer in contact with him, and if i do.. I don't know I needa die how many more times ady.. I'm a bad girl.. yea whatever.. you guys can carry on saying that, but i bet if you're in my "heels", your desire of killing yourself will be two times greater than mine..! No doubt!

PS: I will not make the same mistake again.. I e I ai~ *because of you*

Random Sunday

mandylogy@hotmail.com (- Mandy -) — Sun, 24 Jan 2010 11:33:00 +0000

Feeling weird, because didn't blog for almost a week.. lost track with what i'm doing.. probably only remember concert, dwayne's studio, sherlock holmes, sia interview.. urgh.. *i really forget* FML It's the drama's fault, I'm currently so obssessed with a taiwanese drama (Autumn's Concerto 下一站, 幸福) , starred by vanness wu and his hot body XD.. It's so damn good, it makes me cry like a baby.. hah!

Also.. I'm thinking should I start watermark-ing all the pics i post here, or should i just post the original ones? Should I? Should I not?

Anyways, i have tons of pictures to update, remember the sungai congkak post i promise earlier? I haven't even start to resize the picture yet.. FML

and and and.. recently.. i came up with an idea, hmm.. may be i should cut down using the f-bomb in talking.. including FML,OMFG AND WTF.. (my signature hand sign is an exception, of course)

PS: I broke my bracelet.. T___T.. and I received a saman of speeding.. freaking rm300 gosh

Current Status

mandylogy@hotmail.com (- Mandy -) — Sun, 17 Jan 2010 18:14:00 +0000

I'm single and I'm not a player.. thank you very much for paying so much attention on my relationship status.. and i hope my answer meets your expectation!

PS: Can you feel the sarcasm?

DIY Bokeh Tutorial

mandylogy@hotmail.com (- Mandy -) — Thu, 14 Jan 2010 16:37:00 +0000

Have you guys heard of Bokeh? I was so fasinated about it, don't mind me, k.. I'm not a photography student =p.. Well for those people who are as blur as me.

In photography, bokeh is the blur,^[1]^[2] or the aesthetic quality of the blur,^[3]^[4]^[5] in out-of-focus areas of an image, or "the way the lens renders out-of-focus points of light."^[6] Differences in lens aberrations and aperture shape cause some lens designs to blur the image in a way that is pleasing to the eye, while others produce blurring that is unpleasant or distracting— "good" or "bad" bokeh, respectively.
text from wikipedia

So, got it already? If you still don't, please proceed to the pictures below, and with the courtesy of Dwayne Foong*with my tiny bit of help*, he is going to further explaine how to get the BOKEH pictures..

DIY Bokeh tutorial by Dwayne Foong

No doubt, it was an eye opener for me, but it was a very last minute impromtu shooting, so Dwayne did not prepare tripod, hence this is the only BOKEH picture with object, which is me, can see =D?*Proud*
Instead of a boring round shaped lights, u might wanna try out something like love, star, clover and whatever it comes to mind.
NOTE:The size of your cut-out will affect size of your custom bokeh- so play around with different shapes and sizes for all kinds of neat looks! :)

So, in order to please your sight, u might wanna do something like this. Which is, first please prepare tools as shown above. Preferberly, hard cardboard, but it is ok if you don't have it, It will be fine so long the paper is dark enough to cover .

1. To begin, take a strip of paper and form a ring around your lens- (or u can measure your lens)

2. Trace a circle of your lens size, and later trace another bigger circle outside the initial circle. The bigger is to be cut like (picture below) to spport the cylinder.

3.Cut the circle, and roll paper to cylinder shape to fit lens circle.

4. Cut a square in the middle of the circle ( could just use scissors too. It doesn’t have to look pretty! :)

5. Now. cut your desire shape as shown above, you can cut a few in a square shape paper and stick it using a double side tape, so it's easier for you to change the shape while u're shooting.(I'm using my eye brow trimming scissor LOL because it's small so its easier to cut tiny shape =p)

6. Use your creativity, draw any shape you want, you can even try alphabets.. (Use a decorative punch if you have one, it will make your life so much easier.)

Final product will look something like this.. BTW, Dwayne called this" the custom made condom" for the lens. LOL

Sorry for my lousy description.. it's my first time doing tutorial like this, anyway.. i hope u get what i wanted to say XD.. starting for below are Dwayne's description =D

Hello guys,
In order for this to work, it is recommended that you use a SLR (digital or otherwise), and a big aperture lens (i.e. 50mm f1.8).
Proceed with manual focus and turn it to the minimum focusing distance, iso 800 or 1600 (you will need this since there's very little light coming in), Av mode and set it to the lowest aperture number (i.e. F1.8 or F1.4).
Now you can look for a light source, preferably small, bright and at a distance. For this tutorial we have used christmas decoration lights at a distance of about 3-5 metres away. Street lights at a distance of 5-10 metres work s as well.
Now as you put on the "custom made condom", with the camera settings as mentioned above, point your camera towards the light source and start clicking away. The shutter speed will be at the region of 1/30 or less as most of the light is blocked by the "condom".

You can also experiment with the bokeh size with the focusing ring. The custom bokeh will appear largest at the minimum focusing distance and gets smaller as you focus to infinity.

Pictures taken from google

You may experiment in front of your christmas tree, or ur chinese new year decorating lights =p

I hope this tutorial is helpful. Experiment and enjoy!
By Dwayne Foong (and meme! XD)

PS: It took a lot of effort for me to make the "condom", k? So please appreciate this, and comment pls is you guys wish to see more tutorial in future! =D

Kitchen Creature

mandylogy@hotmail.com (- Mandy -) — Wed, 13 Jan 2010 16:56:00 +0000

Venue: Centre Point, Bandar Utama (Kitchen creature)

1# So, I told Dwayne that I'm utterly broke, like seriously, i left more or less rm20 in my wallet and some more he suggested to dine in a western restaurant*FML*.. I was so freaking worried that i will have to end up washing dishes at the back of the restaurant, but thank goodness.. look at the price.. I was damn delighted.. Furthermore, Dwayne said he's going to buy me dinner, so yea.. I'm free to order whatever listed in the menu.. hoho~

2# Aside from the food list in the menu, they have this behind the page.. Above is part of the article, it says "We welcome all feedback. negative ones will be ignored."and from there, i think this guy really love his mother lots? Wanna read more? HERE

3# Before I forget, this place is tax free =D
Thumbs up!

4# This is Beef stew, eh.. it tasted like soup kambing to me... XD

5# and the strongly recommended dish by Dwayne, it's Baked stuffed mushroom (stuffed with crabstick, and flavoured cream cheese) Yum! Something you won't find in other restaurant =D

6# My shrimp aglio olio, it's ordinary, very ordinary.. I should have choose the pizzas instead, and both are around the same price T__T

7# Bacon carbonara, again.. very ordinary..=.= Actually, it tasted not bad, but i've tried better ones, but of course it's slightly more expensive.

8# Look at the background, I like the concept of their restaurant, it's similiar to Delicious, just that they don't have sofas and pillows in the restaurant. I like the atmosphere, my fav singer - michael buble's songs are playing in the air.. Hmm.. TWO THUMBS UP. Sorry for not taking much picture, I was so into the food and atmosphere. XD

PS: Thank you Dwayne =D Escargots next time? hehe

Random Wednesday

mandylogy@hotmail.com (- Mandy -) — Tue, 12 Jan 2010 21:42:00 +0000

Kyean! See who decided to camwhore, tee-hee!

It's almost 6 am in the morning, and I'm still awake like an owl (I wonder what time does owl sleep =p)

Anyways, I have to wake up in the morning,*FML* before 12 I suppose, because Dwayne promised me to help me out for my interview, very nice of him..

O.. my holidays extended till March.. sigh.. I'm rotting... *FML x 2*

PS: Happy Birthday Derek! I hope you like the video =D

Lullaby

mandylogy@hotmail.com (- Mandy -) — Thu, 07 Jan 2010 20:19:00 +0000

L is for the way you look at me
O is for the only one I see
V is very, very extraordinary
E is even more than anyone that you adore and

Love is all that I can give to you
Love is more than just a game for two
Two in love can make it
Take my heart and please don't break it
Love is meant for me and you

P.S. I miss that soothing voice, the broken rhythm, and those kiss good night!