So Mr.17 has gone for a a week, and I do think about him.. but not as strong as how i miss Zhen.. I called zhen last week, I told him about my grandma.. I was hoping he could atleast call my grandma to wish her well, because.. afterall my grandmother still sees him as part of her grandchildren? I miss his voice, I really do.. but i didn't talk much with him execpt my grandma illness and he didn't talk throughout the phone call ( it reminds me of 2007) the call only lasted for few minutes.. I told him I have to go and I didn't call him back again. Why? because I don't want to burden him? Furthermore, I don't think he is interested knowing. Well.. it's ironic. Why would he bother about my family when I'm no one to him? But, then again, my grandmother treated him really good and getting off this relationship is between me and him, and it has nothing to do with my grandmother, no? Am I wrong to think that way? It's funny.. but it's alright, everything has it first time.

I sms-ed Mr.17 about the pain in my leg is getting worst, he never reply, I called and he didn't pick up? Is that really my fault to said that the other day?

P.s. Can't we remain friend?