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Tuesday, July 31, 2007
 This is the time... we got back to the origin... it take sometime for me to rearrange my emotion... feelings... He asked me to give up, Why? Because someone has occupied his heart, and there is no more space for me... Alright... it's ur decision.. and you leave me no choice but to accept it, in another hand... I don't want you to give up easily... Thtat's why i opened my arm and set you free.. I screwed him, badly?I don't know... everyone have a limit of fooling... and somehow what he did had over my limit.. I can't tolerate any longer... You're toying my emotion, like a cat with it ball... .~♥~.
 posted by - Mandy - at 1:26:00 AM -  
Monday, July 30, 2007
 Well... i din go school today... Why? ^^^^^^ Cried too much for the past two days.. .~♥~.
posted by - Mandy - at 9:39:00 PM -
Sunday, July 29, 2007
.~♥~.
posted by - Mandy - at 12:03:00 AM -
Friday, July 27, 2007
  I lost it... I can't believe i lost it... I'm the one who slowly tied the amulets in his hand phone and asked him not to lost it... but now... I search for the whole school anxiously... I even go class by class... Still... i don't know where is it... One of the secondary teacher told me not to worry... if it really belongs to you...no matter what, it will come back to you.... hopefully... just hopefully... it will... I told him, i lost it... i'm so sad and worry... (worry because i know something will happen...) But he answered with a cool way... so what you want me to do? Already lost it... ( a heartache answer, he dont even care abt it?) .~♥~.
posted by - Mandy - at 12:48:00 AM -
Wednesday, July 25, 2007
 Is love suppose to be love and sweet? I mean beginning of the relationship... I thought it suppose to be love and sweet? But how come mine are bitter and sorrow? He's with me now, but i'm still feeling incomplete... again... "is he the one?" bump in to my mind.
May be humans are always not satisfied for what they have... This is the only possibilities i can think of, and I'm still searching for the answer.... .~♥~.
posted by - Mandy - at 7:45:00 AM -
What's the different between love and friendship? For me, a boy friend will be a big different compare to a friend. But for him, it seems that.... or shall I say, we're different type of people.
Things just happened in 180degree, I don't have any time to think of it. But now, after a week... i begin to think, is he the fellow I really want? A guy... that making you worry and disappoint you all the time... I don't need a guy like that
Being with him, everything back to origin, I no longer who i am.. No! I mean... i don't know what is love?I don't know what it's like to be.. and... i don't know how to love.. He past me his confuses... and now I'm hesitating...shall I pass it back to him?
.~♥~.
posted by - Mandy - at 7:35:00 AM -
Tuesday, July 24, 2007
 Emotions And Personality.Feeling Blue: Sadness & Grief.1. When you last cried: July 17th2. Where you last cried: hokuryo school, japan3. Why you last cried: leaving my japanese host family4. Do you cry spontaneously? Sometimes.5. Cry everyday? That only happens when I watch sad dramas everyday.6. Saddest memory you keep? love turns to be hate.7. Saddest thought you can think of? someone abandon me8. Saddest movie you've seen? korean drama...9. Saddest person you've met? Joo sin10. The saddest you have ever been? a lot of little random times in my life i guess.11. What's the reason? Family/boyfriend/bestfriends.12. Ever sad for no reason? sometimes... emo13. What do you do when you're sad? Cry, call up some friend14. Who or what do you go to for comfort? now... will be wei zhen15. Ever lost the will to live? Yes.16. How does death affect you? Die before my love... i don't want to be the lonely one.17. Did anyone close to you ever die? Not yet.18. Know anyone who died before growing up? My grandpa.19. Does time truly heal everything? not really,it makes me realise how much it meant to me20. Worst day of your life? broke up with my exOn Top Of The World: Happiness & Hope.1. Last time you smiled: few minutes ago2. Last time you laughed: this evening3. Person or thing that can always make you laugh: tham yong jian4. Person or thing that can always make you smile: teh wei zhen5. Person or thing that cheers you up when you're down: wei zhen,alan,yj and koala6. Happiest person you've ever seen: my grandma7. Song to listen to when you're happy: claudine8. Feel good movie: comedy9. Ever cried out of happiness? yea...10. Cried because you laughed so hard? no11. Place to be that makes you happy? wherever place so far it's with my love one12. Ever been happy for no reason?na~13. What do you think it means to be truly happy? hmm... live without sadness and pressure?14. Best day of your life? days with him15. What are your hopes for yourself? to love and be love 16. What are your hopes for others?same17. Do you feel you're living a good life? so far.. yea18. What does it mean to you to live a good life? world with loveSeeing Red: Anger & Hate.1. The last time you were angry: recently...2. Who were you angry with?Puan TTTEEEOOHHH.3. What do you dislike about yourself? hot tempered4. What quality in a person do you most dislike? Arrogant.5. What little things make you angry or annoyed? kacau by yong jian6. Where do you go when you're angry and need to get away?stop talking7. What do you take your anger out on? malang ppl8. How often are you angry? Sometimes.9. Too much? dunnoDon't Make A Peep:Insecurities & Shyness.1. Are you comfortable around new people? Normally I do.2. What intimidates you? Being alone.3. How long does it take for you to put your trust in someone? depends..4. What are your insecurities?someone gonna leave me alone.5. Do you think you will ever get over them? Hopefully.6. How? think positive... believe in myself7. How much will you open up to people? I'll tell you everything if you asked. But not to strangers.8. Do you share more with your friends or your family? depends on the problem? probably my boy will get to know first.9. What is your reason for it? family have no time listen to me + they are kolot10. Who do you trust most? MyselfGreen With Envy:Jealousy.1. What quality about yourself do you wish you had but do not? i like being myself2. What material possession do you wish you could have? Nothing at the moment.3. Do you wish you lead someone else's life? no!i'm not gonna do that4. Anyone in particular? hmm...5. Do you know of anyone ever being jealous of something you have? Yeah.In The Eye Of The Beholder:Beauty.1. Is beauty in the eye of the beholder? Yup.2. Are there things you find to be beautiful but no one else does? yes3. What's the most beautiful thing you've ever seen? love4. Can you find beauty in everything? Almost.5. What is beauty, really? true love from human heartForgive & Forget: Forgiveness & Apology.1. Can everything be truly forgiven? Yes.. but it takes time2. If not, what type of things cannot? stubborn people3 Do you forgive people easily? Depends. Some need time.4. Have you ever forgiven someone for something and it turned out to be a mistake? No.5. Do you forgive and forget? forgive but not forget6. Or forgive but not forget? Yes.7. Or neither? dunno la-Cowardly Lion: Fear & Bravery.1. What do you fear most? Being alone.2. Do you harbour any of the common fears such as...Aichmophobia: fear of needles.[ ]Altophobia: fear of heights.[ ]Arachnophobia: fear of spiders.[ ]Arsonphobia: fear of fire.[ ]Atychiphobia: fear of failure.[ ]Autophobia: fear of being alone.[x]Musophobia: fear of mice.[ ]Necrophobia: fear of death.[ ]Ophidiophobia: fear of snakes.[]3. Do you know why? No.. it just happen.4. When have you been the most afraid? When my mind turn blank5. What is the bravest thing you have ever done?Confess to a guyThe Lines: Imagination & Creativity.1. How do you express yourself? bossy sister, spoiled girl friend, disturbing friend, stubborn daughter2. Do you think individuality is important? Yes.3. Do you daydream often? yea... 4. What's your favorite color? Pink and white5. Do you know why? feelingThe More, The Merrier: Friendship & Family.1. Do friends come first in your life? no2. Does family come first in your life? Yeah....3. Are you close to your family? My grandma4. Are you close to your friends? Depends who they are.5. Do you have a best friend? Yeah..6. Are you their best friend in return? Duh~!7. Have you ever had a friendship fade away? Yes.8. Have you ever had a friendship break away? yes... in process..9. Is there anything you will not share with your friends? certainly yea10. Is there anything you will not share with your family? there is11. Who do you share more with?wei zhen, mei ni and myselfHead Over Heels:Love.1. Do you believe love exists? Yeah.2. Why or why not? Because I'm in it.3. Do you believe in love at first sight? yes... and i just did it4. What do you think it means to love someone? you need him, that's why you love him, not you love him because you need him.5. Do you believe there is more than one way to love someone?yes, i do6. Do you feel loved? Sometimes.7. Ever loved someone? Yes.8. Ever been in love? I am now.9. Have you ever said "I love you" to someone and meant it? Yes.10. Have you ever said "I love you" to someone and did not mean it? No11. What is your opinion on society's idea of love today? not serious with it12. How do you think a person knows when they're in love? first thought and last thought of your day.13. Do you think you'll find love? I'll try my best14. Do you think you've already found it? yea... i found it, and now it's all depends on both of us.15. What does it feel like? I love him...REALLY.The End.1. Have you thought about certain people he while taking this survey? Yes.. beacuse im waiting him to online... 2. Or certain memories? ... a bit?3. Have your emotions changed during this survey? not really....~♥~.
posted by - Mandy - at 8:30:00 AM -
Monday, July 23, 2007
Japan Universal Studio  Wow... guess where am i now?  Before we mess up our hair...  Actually i wanna take this with stef only d... but don't know why suddenly so many ppl pop up ady... lol  everyone jump... jump like me!  gosh.... the japanese style... everyone say peace!  You know what? Me and stefanie are chasing this kitty to take pics with us... dun se her so big size, she can run faster then all of us!  Our group! SUGOI!  Wait! i'm balancing myself!  welll... can't u see i'm enjoying the sun and peace?  say cheese gals... alright sorry adrian din realise you're there  yer... why there's a stop on my head?  Wow... i went to usa in the same time... lol  then... san francisco... XD don't be jealouse... i got a private plane...  are... run for your life... dinosour are aftering us!  Amity island... how i wsh i could be here with my zhen!  Anything you want? What about the jaws?  hey! stefanie stop that... it's private...  i know... just the kolot style, can't think of any better style other then this  My cocktail... hmm... sunset  cherry...  Adrian... and me are fighting over this cherry... tsk too bad, it gonna be mine!  round 2... fight for stwarbrry.. (thanks god i didn't have it, it's so sour)   The pink cafe.... everything inside are pink lo  kitty land...  see... it's not a ordinary sausage... see the brand!  who's cuter....(alright... alright... i know... )  pink pink pink!  want some? no way... it's for zhen and me? =p  Well... end of the day... hmm... let's see... i got myself a kitty ears, perfume and a box of sakura tea for my mum.... (u know what... things here are super expensive... im so broke now... T.T) Labels: High School .~♥~.
posted by - Mandy - at 6:19:00 PM -
 OUR POSTER...  THE CACTUS UNIFORM
Hmm... i really love you, you know... argh! i wanna hug you again! You're so warm XD
o well... today... the cactus uniform again... (girl guide)
the cca are.... super duper boring o.... i miss my dar dar.... wakaka... o ya, there's two japanese student came. Last week i left my adapter in my host family house, and it's so surprise that one of the japanese student pass it back to me this morning... wow... domo arigatou! Labels: High School .~♥~.
posted by - Mandy - at 6:00:00 PM -
Saturday, July 21, 2007
You guy must be wondering why BOTH OF THEM SUDDELY BE TOGETHER? WHEN ? I know it's hard to believe, but you have to...
During the first day in my trip, we went to the KIYOMIZU TEMPLE, one o the famous place in the world... and somehow this 2 amulets attracted my attention(refer to the pics.)
At first i didn't plan to but it, because it's knid of expensive... But later i regret... I wanted to walk up to the temple to grab it... But it's too late for now, everyone's leaving and it's raining...
I really want to get it... so... the following day, after i settled with the host family... I please them to bring me to the temple again... It was the 3rd day.. and so i bought it, and the... they brought me to a love god >.<.... haha.... so... i made a wish without hesitating... sounds so desperate huh? LOL...
I wish... someday, somehow... I will be with this guy... I know he will reject... but... please... atleast i would like to try....
.~♥~.
posted by - Mandy - at 12:53:00 AM -
Wednesday, July 18, 2007
 > i love you... <...ya...
>can you be mine..?
<... YEA
>are you serious?
>alright.. let's remember this moment... july 18th, 11:50pm...
>i love you... .~♥~.
posted by - Mandy - at 11:52:00 PM -
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