Saturday, April 28, 2007
 I can't sleep well for last night.. this morning i wake up extra early, just hope that could have a conversation with su yee... but when i reach her place, she's not in... so, i've no choice but to call her... she's kind of irrational... she's damn frustrating, annoying, angry, speechless, i know... For the whole conversation, i'm controlling my emotion, i stay calm.. and listen to her... I didn't meant to fight.. She's the one who thought i call her is because of disturbing her, irritates her! Hell no! Hey... do u thing i will waste my time and money.. over a stupid person?... You're my friend... and i'm trying to make everything right! Stop telling me that how great i am, and how BITCH are you! Stop brain washing me! Thanks for giving me sometime! Like what i say, i wouldn't wanna mention it now, so i'll do it after the mid year examination! What's wrong with you? What's called friendship? U said we're ain't friends anymore! ok what's the matter... hey, can you stop acting like a spoiled child... we're teens now not children.. we are no more in kinder garden... It's so childish you know?! For the whole conversation, you're keep blaming me... you're telling me how fucking bad mood are you now, telling me how irritates am i... ok...! i quiet and listen.. lastly, let me ask u a question... NOW, I KNOW WHAT'S YOUR FEELING... BUT CAN YOU TELL WHAT'S MY FELLING RIGHT NOW? Stop telling me that! From the beginning till now, i always treated u as my friend! I was like you before, blaming my friend and telling her how bad is she... telling her that she makes my life miserable! But... After all i found that, it's so childish.. and i feel guilty! ... U know what... that's part of friendship! We learn and understand each other better in every argument! All.. we need is time, time! Stop telling me that, we're over! It's not over yet, k! no matter what you think go ahead... no matter what you think is right go ahead! ... but let me, tell u what... i won't leave this friendship... i'll be there... no matter how long... i'll wait... because i believe you'll understand someday somehow! Argh..................!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! .~♥~.
 posted by - Mandy - at 7:52:00 PM -  
Friday, April 27, 2007
" Game!... you're over! "
 "u still wanna stuggle? it's useless... like chasing the wind.. you'll get nothing!"
 "Beg or Bless.. your choice!"
 Just came back from hospital.... something wrong with me... health is getting worst... Ha ha ha... so now... u trying to tell me, both of them are really couple now?... What to do? I'm so sad.. thought he said she is just his friend? I thought she said I just love him as a brother? and... what now? You trying to tell me that, both of them are in a relationship? Ha ha ha... in the middle of the night, I wake all my friends... and ask them... was it true? Both of them are couple now? Since when? How could it be? Are you sure?... serious?..... ha ha ha ha... What am i suppose to do now? Grab him? or let him go? Bless her or beg her?... I cry out of sudden... yelling in my pillow.... I can't sleep well... for the whole night... how can it happen? Ha ha ha ha ha... how can it happen? What's wrong with my life? After recovering from the previous... and now again... repeat and repeat.. in a row... Now I realise... I understanding... Why I love him so much?... because he cure my heartache... he guide me out from the dark... But why? Why.... why the fairy tales end so soon?.~♥~.
posted by - Mandy - at 11:40:00 PM -
Thursday, April 26, 2007
 Their seat...  their height...  their hand..?  their... (guess)  their feet... He he he he... The topic of the day are... What's the differences between girl and boy.... Any comments?Labels: High School .~♥~.
posted by - Mandy - at 5:14:00 PM -
Wednesday, April 25, 2007
 Hooray... Wei Zhen is with me now,... holding his arm, and surprising that he didn't back off... O my god.... XD.... He's so warm... *BLISS* Finally.. my dreams come true.... Well... we're heading to movie... while we walking.... ring......................................... ring.............................................. (Alarm) O great... it's a dream.... grr..... Why now?... should ring it few hours later...... argh!!!.... Wei Zhen.... don't go!! .~♥~.
posted by - Mandy - at 10:01:00 PM -
Tuesday, April 24, 2007
 O god... Wei Zhen found my web... my god.... I wonder will he browse it.... If he really does, I don't know what's he gonna feel.... The main character in this blog... the persom I mentioned the most... Well... It can tell how much I love him... and also how much he meant to me...
The first thing I think of When I think of you,Is your wonderful smile. The second would be your adorable laugh. I could go on and on, But the list would never end. When I think of the short time That we've been together And of all of the happy memories we've already shared It amazes me to no end And I know that we were meant to be together. I look at you and see overflowing love, hope, and joy As well as charm, strength, happiness and dignity. With all of these wonderful qualities It's no wonder I love you so. Labels: S.H.M.I.L.Y .~♥~.
posted by - Mandy - at 11:27:00 PM -
Monday, April 23, 2007
.~♥~.
posted by - Mandy - at 9:04:00 PM -
Sunday, April 22, 2007
 gyoza Dessert... yummy... ORIENTAL BRULEE Lychees, Ginger, Green Tea, Coconut
He he... I've free lunch today... Yesterday... i promised william to have breakfast with him, but when he arrived, I'm still sleeping... =p( sorry will.., why dun u just wake me up..?) End up... breakfast turned to become lunch... we have our lunch in hilton hotel... hmm... forgot what the name of the restaurant ady... =p.. he brought me to a japanese restaurant... O gosh... seafood again... >.<> CLIMAX W: Mandy.. I love you.. and i really do... (he gave me roses... O gosh... >.<) M:thanks.. william... (face blushing ady... keep looking at the roses... avoiding his eyes... ) W:Mandy.. ( forgot what he said ady... too nervous... he lifted up my chin.. o great.. what's he gonna do... ?) M:Will... I love him... u know.. ? Wei Zhen... ( my voice is shivering) W: Muacks... let's go... ( He kissed my forehead... o gosh... ) M:Sorry Will... (hugged him...) W: U dun have to apologize, let's go dear, i send you home...
I KNOW IT'S DRAMATIC, DUN BE JEALOUSE...
He used to confess with me last year, but the feeling is not with me... I treated him as my intimate... he knows everything about me... Whenever i'm down, he's the one who be by my side.. guard and guide me... But why... My mind is fulled of Wei Zhen... eventhought he said he won't fall for me... why... ? Labels: Food .~♥~.
posted by - Mandy - at 9:01:00 PM -
Saturday, April 21, 2007
 O my god... within two days, i phoned wei zhen more then 7 houes... o gosh.... my mother just scolded my brother because of the phone bill for this month... o great... what's gonna happen to me?
Hmm... but i don't mind spending money on wei zhen... it doesn't matter... o yea.. u guys must be curios what we talk about... =p... hmm, nothing much... but now i know... (refer to the conversation)
Me:May I ask u a question?
Wz:... sure...
Me:you must answer me the wor~
Wz:see first...
Me:no... u have to answer me... pls...
Wz:ah... kkk...
Me:Did you ever fall for me? Before? Not even one second?
Wz... ... ...
Me:answer me honestly... pls zhen..
Wz:y... yea...
Me:serious?!!!!... when XD
Wz:.. not telling
Me: Hmm... KLCC? My birthday?
Wz:Lately....
Me:Lately..? when?... music room?
Wz:... y... yea... but just one second..
Me:Zhen... u know what... I love u... XD
O my god... The most important is, he promise to go out for a date... with me... both of us... after mid-year exam... argh... >.Since when I started to miss him so badly.. every single moments... when? Why I fall for him? I don't know... it's all fate... and I promised myself... I won't give up on him that easily... no more... thinking of the negative side... unless... he ask me to do so.... .~♥~.
posted by - Mandy - at 11:53:00 PM -
Friday, April 20, 2007
Well... yesterday, i dreamed about him... no... not wei zhen... Joo sin i mean... I miss him so badly... In the dream, everything goes back to those day we were... He's hugging me gently... whispering in my ear, how much he love me. Eventhough it was a dream, but I can feel his body warm and heard his heart beating. In that moment, I thought it was reality, and the fact he leave me... was actually a dream.. i thought... I finally woke up from the nightmare... Ha.. ha... but who knows... Why? I always ask myself. why he hate me so much? But i couldn't get any answer... or... I knew why... ,but i'm just bluffing myself?Al thought, we're broke up, but he's still in my mind... every single day... how come? Wei Zhen and Joo Sin... who's the one? ...I'm still hesitating... I love Joo Sin and I like wei zhen... I love joo sin for who he are, and i like wei zhen because he's part of my dream boy.. Ha ha... i'm so greedy... But what to do? It's too late for me to turn back now... Well... everything can only be my dream... I don't have any choices, because the chance of being with joo sin already broken, it's impossible to play back my life. For wei zhen i think i gonna stop falling to him, it's because of su yee... and the main reason is... i'm not his type... he rejected me badly, like what he said in another day. The percentage of accepting me as her girl, no matter now or in the future is always zero... Well JOO SIN and WEI ZHEN,... who's the one.. or... actually... no one? .~♥~.
posted by - Mandy - at 8:30:00 PM -
Wednesday, April 18, 2007
 Wei Zhen... someday...  hannah and anis...  hi hannah... =p  Sean is playing...  and here come me... XD  O my god.. i looks fat in the pics..  me and hannah...  hey... this pose not nice leh!  sean... top 5 tennis player in malaysia... d blue shirt d... >.<
Finally the tennis tournament has now ended, i lost ady... haha... actually i join the tournament is all because of wei zhen... But he didn't turn up in the tournament... his name was not register, thanks to cik mahani... It's kind of upset... Anyway... i having fun... and guess what? I got tanner then before.... I really wish I could see wei zhen playing in any tournament someday... and i can be by his side, cheering for him in every match he play.... But my dream seems to be far far away from me...Labels: High School .~♥~.
posted by - Mandy - at 7:55:00 PM -
Tuesday, April 17, 2007
 Yay... Finally i pierced my belly button... O gosh... it really hurts.... the piercer didn't put anything to numb my tummy before he pierce... OUCH! You know how much it cost? RM100 my god... *faint* Sob sob... beside.. i cann;t eat seafood for one month... Haiz... and you know what? My grandmother cooked seafood TOM YAM.... T_T Why... why today... ? Labels: Beauty .~♥~.
posted by - Mandy - at 5:57:00 PM -
Monday, April 16, 2007
 Girls Fact: When a girl... When a girl bumps into your arm while walking she wants you to hold her hand When she wants a hug she will just stand there When u break a girls heart, she still feels it when u run into each other 3 years later When a girl is quiet, millions of things are running through her mind. When a girl is not arguing, she is thinking deeply. When a girl looks at you with eyes full of questions,she is wondering how long you will be around. When a girl answers, "I'm fine, "after a few seconds,she is not at all fine. When a girl stares at you, she is wondering why you are so wonderful. When a girl lays her head on your chest,she is wishing for you to be hers forever. When a girl says that she can't live without you, she has made up her mind that you are her future. When a girl says, "I miss you, "no one in this world can miss you more than that When a girl is mean to you after a break up she wants you back, but she's scared she'll get hurt and knows you're gone forever
Guy Facts:When a guy calls you,he wants to be with you When a guy is quiet,He's listening to you... When a guy is not arguing,He realizes he's wrong When a guy says, "I'm fine, " after a few minutes,he means it When a guy stares at you,he wishes you would care about him and wonders if you do When you're laying your head on a guy's chest,he has the world When a guy calls you everyday,he is in love When a (good) guy tells you he loves you,he means it When a guy says he can't live without you,he's with you till your done When a guy says, "I miss you, "he misses you more than you could have ever missed him or anything else .~♥~.
posted by - Mandy - at 9:11:00 PM -
Well another boring Monday... Luckily, there's co curiculum today... Wei zhen was absent today... sob sob... I miss him >.<.... Haiz... Omg... you know what... i did badly in my add maths assesment just now... T.T i don't understand what the question want me to do... Haiz... hopefully i won't get the lowest marks in class... Besides... tomorrow gonna be the tennis tournament... I don't even have time to practice... sobbies... o my god.... What to do now? Well.... chill chill....  this will be the sunset.... was it nice? Did it during the co-curiculum...  Simple and nice.... colourful puzzle  keke... I spent not more then 10 minutes on this piece of paper... >.< Gonna name it... rushing..  You prefer which one...? Labels: High School .~♥~.
posted by - Mandy - at 7:21:00 PM -
Sunday, April 15, 2007
Jian's Big Day  Coppucino cake for jian jian...  o my god... like yong jian's gonna to operation or something... XD  Yong jian was so noob... >.<  victory for jian's birthday.. kaka  nice one.. huh? Wonder who's the make up artist  blur blur  yer... no one looking at the cam!  o my god... my arm look so big in this pics..  howard... kaka... the rooms really hot...  everyone i s enjoying theirself..  me and grace.. does both of us looks cute?  Rabbit punching "MARIA"  Look sexy huh... ?>.<  I like this shirt...  Wow... both of them are jain's neighbour  Jian and grace, a cool girl she are...  Guess who's this? This is howard... doesn't looks like him le...  Me and amos... he's a cute guy... =p  Ka ka... boring sia...  The blur blur birthday boy...  O my god... Jian... you better hold me tight... Labels: Birthdays .~♥~.
posted by - Mandy - at 12:23:00 AM -
Friday, April 13, 2007
 me, ming yi and edalene.. go green house!  wow... yellon + green = ?...  Cheer leading for green house... G to the R to the E E N  Monkey.. kaka  oo.. i changed ady... super hot leh... Wow... sport day... damn boring... go there just to "enjoy" the sun... Haiz... green house lost again... I thought Amrit will break the curse... for being last every year... but... too bad... Well, he tried his best, it's not his fault... Go GREEN HOUSE... do better for next year!Labels: High School .~♥~.
posted by - Mandy - at 7:08:00 PM -
Thursday, April 12, 2007
 I can't concentrate for the whole day... I can't sleep well... Crying for the whole night... Now my eyes like goldfish only... This morning when i'm in school i cry again... Fortunately there's mei ni and li shan to comfort me... Thank u very much, and billy... I don't want to give up... I don't want... But i scare i will got hurt... and I don't wanna lose any friends... I love him so much... Su Yee, Wei Zhen... Both of you have feeling towards eachother? Shall I give up without trying? I asked myself... Why I like him..? The answer is I don't know... Because i don't like him anymore... I love him... It's so rediculous I know... What he did... that makes me fall? I love someone that easily? I don't know... everything just happens... I thought I love Joo Sin? argh!!!!! What am I talking about? I'm so confuse now... What is love? I don't know... I'm happy when he is happy, I'm sad when he is sad... We're like a mirror... reflecting eachother... I laid in bed tonight and cried Tears of loneliness With heartbreak filled my eyes In a world full of people I've isolated myself somehow Maybe because I'm afraid Of being hurt once again Hiding my feelingsIs what I do best Never shall I be the first To confess Running away Is how I survive Rather easy to do in my life Anytime I begin to love I get beat on once again Another tactic I suppose To prevent me from gaining control I laid in bed and cried tonight Tears of loneliness with heartbreak Have become my life
.~♥~.
posted by - Mandy - at 6:49:00 PM -
Wednesday, April 11, 2007
 Su yee like wei zhen?... or i just too sensitive? Seriously... I don't know, and i'm kind of upset about it... Because the rumours seems to be so true.. I'm scare, I sacre I'll lost again... I called wei zhen... and of course i told him everything... Me:Zhen, we need to talk... about su yee, I know it's kind of unbelievable, but is true.. Wz:Ok.. what is it? Me:Remember what i told u before, I think su yee like you.. Well, i called her just now, and.. (REFER THE CHAT LOG BETWEEN ME AND SU YEE... UNDER "BETRAYED") So... what you think? She like you... Wz:I just treat her as a friend... Me:Wei zhen... tell me shall I continue falling for you?... I'm so insecure, I scare i will lost, once again... after what my ex did to me, it's enough... I don't want to experience those heartache anymore... ... Shall... I... continue loving you? Wz:I don't know..... Me:I hope you won't feel irritate for what i said, I just wanna tell you everything... I don't wanna hide it... Wz: It's ok Me:I don't know, what so special about you... it's hard for me to determine what so attractive about you... I just know... I love you... my mind is fulled of you... every day and night Wz:.... Me:Wei Zhen, i'm suffering... what shall i do next? I really don't wanna fight with su yee... Wz:... Me:you like su yee?... or shall i give up? Wz:... don't know Me: answer me... Wz:... Me: ok... another question... Wz:... Me:... the percentage of being with you in the future is it zero? Wz:... ... ... yea Me: so... what you said in the music room.. was actually a lie? Wz:... ... Me:you lie to me, because you don't want me to get hurt feelings? Wz:yea.....
Ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha.......................................................!!! .~♥~.
posted by - Mandy - at 11:46:00 PM -
CONVERSATION BETWEEN ME & HER
Love u... no more... says: nice one su yee... you're avoiding me...
~Wet Milk~ says:
of cuz i m my dear
~Wet Milk~ says:
ur scarin me
Love u... no more... says:
you're freaking me out
~Wet Milk~ says:
u r
Love u... no more... says:
i dun wanna lost a fren becoz of a guy,k?
Love u... no more... says:
i'm thought of giving up
Love u... no more... says:
but... b4 i did so, i just wanna know everything, cause i dun wanna regret
~Wet Milk~ says:
u shudnt
~Wet Milk~ says:
give up
Love u... no more... says:
because if things keep going like that, he will fall to u one day..
~Wet Milk~ says:
he wont
Love u... no more... says:
or... u'll fall someday
~Wet Milk~ says:
i noe him
~Wet Milk~ says:
n i noe me
Love u... no more... says:
i know him either,k...
Love u... no more... says:
we dun talk in school
Love u... no more... says:
but we did chat in phone
~Wet Milk~ says:
oo
~Wet Milk~ says:
tat's gud
Love u... no more... says:
we dunno what's gonna happen in the future, and we can't guarantee what's gonna hgappen
Love u... no more... says:
su yee.
~Wet Milk~ says:
yes?
~Wet Milk~ says:
u noe wad
~Wet Milk~ says:
lets juz let it flow
~Wet Milk~ says:
i luv u mandy
~Wet Milk~ says:
as a gud fren
~Wet Milk~ says:
so juz let it flow
Love u... no more... says:
i dun wanna get hurt
Love u... no more... says:
and i dun wanna hate u
Love u... no more... says:
so before i step out, i've to choose my direction
Love u... no more... says:
if you are attracted to him, tell me... i'll consider out of everything
Love u... no more... says:
and taht's me... i dun wanna fight over becoz of a guy , get me?
~Wet Milk~ says:
i dun 1 als
~Wet Milk~ says:
i duno gal
Love u... no more... says:
means?
~Wet Milk~ says:
i duno
Love u... no more... says:
u dunno... cause u might fall for him?
Love u... no more... says:
am i right?
~Wet Milk~ says:
i really duno le
Love u... no more... says:
dun avoid my question... su yee... is enough... just tell me yes or no.... i wanna stop everything as fast as possible
~Wet Milk~ says:
i duno!!!!!!!
Love u... no more... says:
o well su yee... let me make u clear now
Love u... no more... says:
if you dun like him, you wun be sending so much msg to him
Love u... no more... says:
and in every message
Love u... no more... says:
just flirting , kissing, hugging
Love u... no more... says:
and i love you
Love u... no more... says:
that rellay makes me sick,k
Love u... no more... says:
i really glad the person who told me that
Love u... no more... says:
but i just dunno why you dun wanna admit
Love u... no more... says:
and i got it now...
Love u... no more... says:
your answer is... yes... i might consider him as my bf...
Love u... no more... says:
and that's y you tell me let everything flow
Love u... no more... says:
well... su yee... let me tell u... my final answer, you like him or love him what so ever, go ahead... i'm giving up... i'm really disappointed, is not because i can't get him... i dissappointing is because you're hiding so much from me, as a friend why dun u just tell me directly? Is this what friend should do? you say i'm your friend... do u think the way u treat a fren are so wrong...
Love u... no more... says:
IM NOT FIGHTING WITH YOU BECOZ OF ZHEN, IM JUST DISAPPOINTED THAT YOU'RE NOT TREATING ME AS YOUR FRIEND.!
Love u... no more... says:
ISTEAD OF ACTING NICE INFRONT OF ME, IT'S DISGUSTING!
I just dun understand why don't you just tell me the truth, until i asked you... You sure, you won't fall to him? ... or you just hiding something from me... .~♥~.
posted by - Mandy - at 9:49:00 PM -
Monday, April 9, 2007
        Today... just receive some weird mms... I don't know who's the one who sent me... the number was hide... "See! this is what you called friendship! Ha ha... You're losing him... can't you realise it?"
The second... message... "Wooo~ things getting interesting... Believe it or not, Wei Zhen said i love u.. too bad is not to u" The third message... "Game over... Wake up my dear, he's not belongs to you...!" Enough! I wonder who are you....! Let me tell you, no matter what I ain't giving up on him! and I believe in Su Yee!!!!!!!!!!!!!! .~♥~.
posted by - Mandy - at 5:12:00 PM -
Saturday, April 7, 2007
 You're kissable and cuddly;
You're lovable and sweet;
You thrill me every minute,
And sweep me off my feet.
You're charming and disarming,
Desirable and true.
You inspire and impress me,
And that's why I love you! .~♥~.
posted by - Mandy - at 10:29:00 PM -
Friday, April 6, 2007
Wei Zhen... you're great...!!!  1  2  3  4  5  6  7  8  9 he'd always looks serious when he's playing tennis... That is one of the reason why he attracted me so... .~♥~.
posted by - Mandy - at 9:45:00 PM -
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