The diary he wrote.. The cursave hand writting is written by me..
Just now, i was clearing my drawer, and again, it attracts me again, the exchange diary that written by joo sin and me...
Unintentionally, I glance over the diary... ya.. again.. I thought, I'll be strong this time and learned how to control my emotion. But i guess I'm wrong, my tears washed my face all over again...
Every time, i saw the diary, I really want to burn it... but... I can't... I can't... it is to cruel for me by doing that.
The diary is filled our memories, our happiness, sadness , desire and also my heart... How can I just dump it into the fire? I can't do it! Cause I'm killing myself, i am burning my own heart!
I'm trying very hard not to cry over you, because every tear is just one more reminder that I don't know how to let you go!
TAN JOO SIN!!!!!!! Where're you been?! I thought you said you'll leave me never? I thought you said you'll never let me cry?! I thought you said MANDY CHAN MUN YEE is your only girl?! I thought you promised, no matter what you'll believe me and stand by my side?!!! Where are you now?!!! I need you now!...
I miss you, i miss the days, you always scold me stupid , because i always crying for fear to lost you!!! That's why i always wanted you to hug me tight instead laying tender kiss on my lips! I always feeling insecure to being with you, because you are too sweet, i scare having you is just a dream, I wanted you to hug me tight because your heart beat can eliminate my insecure and loneliness!I can even sleep while you hugging me, because your heart beat is my favorite lullaby!
Every time those reminiscences of you, are replaying over and over in my mind!... and your smiling faces, is always appearing in my dream... But it's all nightmare for me, because... i knew... you already leave me... i want to see your smiling face in reality not dream!
NO!!!! How dare you! Why is it you can put the the biggest smile on my face , but also bring the most tears in my eyes?
For some pages in the diary had your tears on it, now only I realize, your tears are full of pressure, tired, sad, disappointed and hopeless. O god, why can't I realize it on that very day? I'm so sorry... sorry for not being your side when you're depress... i promised to be by your side all the time, but i can't make it... sorry.. always saying that you're a jerk, a failure... a bad guy that always making me cry... But for me, you're my motivation, you are my sunshine in my and day moonlight in my night, TAN JOO SIN,
Do you know.. you're my everything..!
You bought me happiness, and you also taught me what is love...
Darling.. if i could be any parts of your body, I'd be your tears.
To be conceiving in your heart, born in your eyes, live in your cheeks, and die on your lips!
... I think I better stop, that's all for today... I'm tired...
Unintentionally, I glance over the diary... ya.. again.. I thought, I'll be strong this time and learned how to control my emotion. But i guess I'm wrong, my tears washed my face all over again...
Every time, i saw the diary, I really want to burn it... but... I can't... I can't... it is to cruel for me by doing that.
The diary is filled our memories, our happiness, sadness , desire and also my heart... How can I just dump it into the fire? I can't do it! Cause I'm killing myself, i am burning my own heart!
I'm trying very hard not to cry over you, because every tear is just one more reminder that I don't know how to let you go!
TAN JOO SIN!!!!!!! Where're you been?! I thought you said you'll leave me never? I thought you said you'll never let me cry?! I thought you said MANDY CHAN MUN YEE is your only girl?! I thought you promised, no matter what you'll believe me and stand by my side?!!! Where are you now?!!! I need you now!...
I miss you, i miss the days, you always scold me stupid , because i always crying for fear to lost you!!! That's why i always wanted you to hug me tight instead laying tender kiss on my lips! I always feeling insecure to being with you, because you are too sweet, i scare having you is just a dream, I wanted you to hug me tight because your heart beat can eliminate my insecure and loneliness!I can even sleep while you hugging me, because your heart beat is my favorite lullaby!
Every time those reminiscences of you, are replaying over and over in my mind!... and your smiling faces, is always appearing in my dream... But it's all nightmare for me, because... i knew... you already leave me... i want to see your smiling face in reality not dream!
NO!!!! How dare you! Why is it you can put the the biggest smile on my face , but also bring the most tears in my eyes?
For some pages in the diary had your tears on it, now only I realize, your tears are full of pressure, tired, sad, disappointed and hopeless. O god, why can't I realize it on that very day? I'm so sorry... sorry for not being your side when you're depress... i promised to be by your side all the time, but i can't make it... sorry.. always saying that you're a jerk, a failure... a bad guy that always making me cry... But for me, you're my motivation, you are my sunshine in my and day moonlight in my night, TAN JOO SIN,
Do you know.. you're my everything..!
You bought me happiness, and you also taught me what is love...
Darling.. if i could be any parts of your body, I'd be your tears.
To be conceiving in your heart, born in your eyes, live in your cheeks, and die on your lips!
... I think I better stop, that's all for today... I'm tired...
