It has been, been awhile since I write, been awhile since I see my boy, been awhile since everything. Let’s just say I’m really bad at time management, and Im a queen of procrastination. One thing though, I always focus on my studies more than anything else. Master degree is not a joke, research and more research, looking for the right journal articles are also extremely difficult for my field.. Well, let’s just skip the boring staff.
As 2015 began, I have set a few resolution for myself, (1) Update my blog twice a week, at least. (2) Start taking care of my skin and hair seriously. (3) Be happy and positive.
1. My blog is officially 9 years old. Can’t believe I have been blogging for almost a decade. Well.. if you are really interested, you can still find some of my old posts in the archive. I started in 2007, I was in high school and blogging was a trend then. Started out with alot of rants, and relationship bullshit. LOL. Bullshit because I was so childish and naive. Almost all post is about guys/love/etc. And in 2010 I got in to the blogosphere, all thanks to nuffnang then. Met some other interesting bloggers, and there are some that I’m still seeing in events today. In 2012, started to put more effort and more advertorial. But in 2014, I decided to not continue any contract. Because I have realized in the recent years, my blog has become more commercialize. It’s good for me of course, but I felt the need to revive my blog by putting more personality into it. For a very long time I stopped sharing my personal life, and thoughts. I always thought readers are more attracted when there are pictures, hence for most time, I’m only doing what the readers like/what the people want to see/hear/know and slowly I just get bored of it. Oh well, but 2015, I’m going to put in more effort, I want to share my new life with you, whoever that has been follow me since the starting of my blogger career. LOL. I hope I’m not too ambitious and I still have my readers with me? LOL.
2. I mentioned skin and hair, because my stylist told me a couple of days ago, then my hair is at the brink of disintegrating. O.O After numerous dye/bleach/perm, my hair is not as healthy as before anymore. Even my mum’s hair is better than me now. It might look fine from the pictures, but in reality they are a mess, my hair got tangled every day in the morning, despite brushing/combing and using treatment cream everyday. It’s not working anymore, I think my hair is officially f* up. I chopped my hair a few days ago, and now I left with short hair again, short but still always tangling. Somebody help? T_T And my skin, staying in Korea, country that has 4 seasons, my skin care expenses went up, I have to keep changing skin care, each season is giving me different problem, and knowing that I’m getting any younger. I think I should start looking into a different set of skin care, anti-aging perhaps? Sigh. I’m so stress here, korean women that are way older than me looks younger than I do, how like that T^T Also, to my laziness, I also barely put on the necessary skin care, eg. essence, mask, facial. I only wash them, moisturizer and I’m done. I skipped eye care, sun screen, and many more. Sigh.
3. I have heard so much about people commenting me being overly cynical, and I’m a lone wolf. I don’t like being in the group as much, and for most time I’m just living in my own bubble. Nicer way to put it, I’m independent, or else I’m just selfish and self-centered. I just don’t like to live up to people’ expectations, but that doesn’t mean I don’t value people around me. I guess having a toxic behavior is pushing people away from me. Much like self-fulling prophecy, i think I’m ok alone, so for many years I’m ok being alone, but in fact, deep down I may be craving for more connections. It’s a mind game. So, I want to overcome that by addressing that I want to stop being cynical and stay positive and keep myself happy and people around me loved. A more on this part. Will mention more on this in the future.
Well, here are my goals, geez.. I’m already feeling tired writing this, and I’m not bothered to proof read this again. LOL. Give me some time, I’m changing, till then, xx.
PS: Tired and exhausted. Coming home in 3 days <3
P/PS: No image required for this post =p
Adult leopards are solitary and territorial and will only associate long enough to mate.
Was watching some documentary and when that exact phase pop-ed up, I can’t stop but relating myself to a solitary creature. I love parties and meeting new people. But I guess my type of party is one that never exceed more than 20 people? Ok, or may be 100? Well, I honestly don’t know the limit, but when I do hang out with people, I prefer seeing them one on one or in a small group. The more intimate and deep the conversation, the better.
Sometimes, I thought I’m just lazy, but I guess I just like to put a premium on spending time alone. Sometimes, a full day by myself makes me feel more me than anything at all. There are times that I just stay in for days, until my food ran out and I had to go out. Some people enjoy alone time in gym or park or you-name-it. But, mine requires only me, my macbook and my bed. LOL. Even when I’m in a relationship, I carve out hours of alone time just to keep my sanity. Is this weird? If anyone that know me were to describe me, one of the words they’d use emphatically to do so is: INDEPENDENT. And those who doesn’t, nothing nice from them, ever. And I couldn’t care less.
This is my life.