Solitary Creature

Nov 20

Adult leopards are solitary and territorial and will only associate long enough to mate.

Was watching some documentary and when that exact phase pop-ed up, I can’t stop but relating myself to a solitary creature. I love parties and meeting new people. But I guess my type of party is one that never exceed more than 20 people? Ok, or may be 100? Well, I honestly don’t know the limit, but when I do hang out with people, I prefer seeing them one on one or in a small group. The more intimate and deep the conversation, the better.

Sometimes, I thought I’m just lazy, but I guess I just like to put a premium on spending time alone. Sometimes, a full day by myself makes me feel more me than anything at all. There are times that I just stay in for days, until my food ran out and I had to go out. Some people enjoy alone time in gym or park or you-name-it. But, mine requires only me, my macbook and my bed. LOL. Even when I’m in a relationship, I carve out hours of alone time just to keep my sanity. Is this weird? If anyone that know me were to describe me, one of the words they’d use emphatically to do so is: INDEPENDENT. And those who doesn’t, nothing nice from them, ever. And I couldn’t care less.

This is my life.

Fallen for Fall

Oct 25

Whether it’s the foliage, the fashion, or the cool, crisp weather that keeps me going, I have fallen for fall. They say, Fall is a second spring when every leaf is a flower. The time when everything bursts with its last beauty, as if nature had been saving up all year for the grand finale.

PS: Meanwhile, I have also decided to add some colours and life to my desk despite the withering season.


Oct 7

There’s always a story behind an artist’s work, a reason for their creations. Fashion designers are no exception. 

Coco Chanel, the original designer, revolutionized woman’s fashion with her creations, but like any other artist, there’s a story to be told behind each work of art.

One of the most recognizable brands around the world,… Chanel is high fashion. But behind the iconic black and white,… the tweed jackets,… and the quilted leather hand bags,.. is a women, who like many others had an idea and was determined to bring her passion to fruition.

Gabrielle Chanel, nicknamed Coco, was born in Saumur, France to a family who sold working clothes and underwear around the markets. But she was often out in the fields, enjoying nature,… which is where one of her first motifs entered her life. Chanel’s early works often featured an ear of wheat,… an image that took her back to her youth.

It’s these memories and life experiences that were woven together to define and create the prolific designs of Chanel,… such as the 6 years she spent at an orphanage. Early Chanel designs bear a stark resemblance to the uniforms she wore at the convent of Aubazine,… a place where she became enamoured by the image of a star,… soon to be another prominent motif.

The next couple decades of her life included friends such as Picasso and Misia Sert,… along with other social elites. And it’s during this time that Chanel started her career in fashion, designing hats. Chanel’s romantic relationships brought her into contact with things like the equestrian life,… another theme that would continue in her style book,… along with tweed,… a material that she would use to make one of the most iconic pieces of women’s fashion, the Chanel tweed jacket.

Gabrielle Chanel traveled around the world, being influenced by the history of the places she’d visit,… but she also influenced the lives around her as well.

Even into the modern day, Chanel became immortalized through works of artists like Andy Warhol.

Chanel went against the grain from the very beginning, but behind each creation is a story,… of the designer and the trials and triumphs of her life.

Homesick and Settling Down

Sep 30

The hardest part about living abroad, or studying abroad; distant away from your family, is blending in and seeking a sense of belonging in the new environment. Being here for the first few weeks, it was hard, considering I have travelled most places alone, settling down is a totally different idea. It was so hard to call the place I’m currently living, “home”. I find it irony that at the end of day, when I tell my friends “I’m going home” I feel a tiny bit of loneliness. “Home” here is not exactly home.

Oh well, I had to make the best out of it. Back in Malaysia I do not display any pictures of myself or my family in my room. But, staying alone, far from home, I finally realized the need of actual photographs, rather than what I have over my laptop or phone. Also, never thought that I’m so patriotic, a KLCC miniature, seriously? LOL. Then again, it is the sense of familiarity in a world that lack of sense of belongingness.

Little do I know, I was actually homesick. I thought I was strong enough, but turns out that I was under a lot of stress, my hormones was a mess, and had terribly PMS + Mood swings. Also, I was so close in buying a ticket to fly back home. Regardless, being away change me for quite a bit, absence do make hearts grow fonder, I’m talking more to my family as compared when I was in Malaysia. The realization of true friends - despite being physically so far away, we never run out of topics. And a chance to get to know myself better in a new environment.

PS: Stay strong Mandy!

Back to School

Sep 14

Currently back to school, and for the first time I’m taking a total of 21 credit hours classes - 9 credit hours for my core course, and another 12 credit hours for Korean Language. That’s not just it, I have to maintain a minimum of 3.7 CGPA to  keep my scholarship. T^T While most of my friends have started working, I’m here back to being a nerd. But, thankfully some of the subjects are interesting, and it’s rewarding when I can research on subjects that I have a passion for. I actually have a crazy idea, to continue my PHD after my master, hmm.. or may be not. But my goal is to earn a PHD before I reach 30 (Journey to Permanent Head Damage, lol?).

PS: Just my desk and favorite leopard print tumbler.